Log 2

Today I did a bit of lawn mowing. The coast was not looking as good so we did not go to the beach. This after noon the missionaries who spoke in church yesterday came over for their P-Day. They played pool, chatted, and then shared with us a great lesson. Our conversation with our grandparents was originally focused on 2 Nephi 32:8-9. The main point our conversation came to was this: All sin is a form of Pride. All Pride is a form of Enmity. Enmity is simply not loving. And so, the best way to be a saint is to follow the Savior by loving one another and loving unconditionally. Your level of intolerance is your level of wickedness. Act as the Savior would. That really hit me. I've been trying to develop an ever stronger relationship with the Savior. I've felt His love truly on a number of occasions and cannot deny it. However, as I have tried to follow Him, I feel like I've become distracted. This has created a decrease in my happiness and faith. But I think I have found the real core: If I go back to my old philosophy "I love you regardless of what you do or what you have done," I will once again become the happy, light, friendly character that I felt I was at the beginning of the year.

There has not been too much to do here at grandma's house but think. I can feel the devil's angels fighting me; trying to make me feel jealous, covetous, hateful, and vengeful. But I must NOT give in! With the help and strength of my Savior and by the power of the Holy Ghost, I will be able to overcome the natural man I am sure. I will accept the plan of happiness; I want to be happy! And yet, why is it still a trial to fight thoughts that lead to sadness and grief?