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Haha, it's so wonderful how the gospel can take anyone out of the lamest frames of mind!

Scripture of the day is 2 Nephi 2:2. Our afflictions (EVERYTHING that causes us pain or grief) is dedicated to a sacred purpose. There is a reason for everything! It is to draw us closer to Christ. Even self-inflicted trouble (lol, like what's been happening to me all week long) is here to refine us and to teach us! Thankfully, with the Lord's help, I've found my way out (again) of the hole I've dug for myself.

I also realize that a study of the scriptures can be more helpful than anything else. After studying this week, I realized that my despair came from one thing: Fear. I knew I needed to study fear to identify my own and conquer them. Confront them. Not to escape from them, not to try to kill them, but to accept them and act according to what God expects me to do. While looking this up I found the verse that was the basis for verse 3 in the song How Firm A Foundation; it was awesome! It's Isaiah 41:10.

Later, while studying for the Personal Management Merit Badge online, I came upon this online book written by some psycology professor. It was awesome because it was a totally free online self help book! I read it briefly in the chapter concerning Procrastination, and sure enough, the core of the type of mental disorder I have is fear. And I didn't even need a proffessor to tell me that! The scriptures are there, and can be used to solve ANY probem. All the same, it is helpful to read what these learned men are finding, as long as what they write is correct according to the gospel. http://www.psychologicalselfhelp.org/Chapter4/chap4_76.html
Seriously, go look at this site and learn about the different types of procrastinators. It's fascinating!

:) Well, tonight is the Community Creche festival that our Stake sets up every year. Grandpa will be the sculptor on site again. I'm excited to see who's performing the live music. My little brother said that I missed out on an awesome a cappella version of Carol of The Bells last year; I'm excited to see what's cooked up for this year's music. I invited my friend from choir to come along, but she won't be able to make it. Hm, ah well. I wonder if she could make it to the ward Christmas party...

I've had thoughts of having a big caroling team made up out of youth from the stake for this Christmas season. I hope I'll be able to get that coordinated; I'm still not certain if we'll be able to do it.

Ha, schoolwork has gone downhill all week. But that's okay; we've got all Christmas break, the weekend, and TODAY to catch up. Combating procrastination here... "Okay Keenan, just 5 more minutes... *works for another hour*"

Haha, nice try Satan! Can't take me down that easily.