ENOUGH!

I've had it. I'm not allowing myself to act so glum. "Keenan, you will be HAPPY! Whether you like it or not!"

Let me talk about the last few days, just to unload.

I am not going back to choir. Ever. Well, it sounds like a happy ending, right? Sad thing is, guilt comes with the package; I have abandoned the friends I have made there at choir.

Last night my youth group did a temple trip, which I didn't go on. My sister and I got there at the stake center early, and so I decided to study a bit in the foyer where a comfortable couch was. I love the scriptures. Them + a good study guide = something that can keep me occupied for a very long time. And so it did. They left without me knowing. When I decided to go look at the room where they all would meet, I found it empty. I had missed out on the opportunity of serving at the temple.

For the last few days I have been in total despair. I know that there's hope; I just need to find it.

I will find it.