Sigh, today I started choir at Hidden Valley again.
I went in and was greeted by the friends that I had made from last year: Mikaela, Jeremy, Ashley, and Sam. That was nice to see them again, but it was not so pleasant to see some of the other young men in the group...
The whole experience was probably the most unproductive thing I have done all school year. All I did was casually review for a unit test, listen to (lame 80's) music that Mr. Lawson was playing (he was expecting us to learn simply by listening to the recording of it), and listen to the foulest and most obscene language and jokes I have heard all year. It was a very sick and degrading experience. Not as much as how others acted, however, but more of how I acted in the situation. This time I decided to lay-low, you know. Just be the quiet good example who just sits in his chair and studies. I remember last year when I was a bit of a "policeman" concerning the language of the group. Now I feel more tolerant, and it makes me feel weak. Should I stand up and tell people to shush up? I don't know if it is my place to do that. Well, it is my job to "stand as a witness of God in all things and times and places", right? I think I just need to boost my courage.
But then again, I don't even want to go back. The music we are singing is STILL too easy (and no fun, btw), and it's not very nice to swim in a sess pool. I know, I know, I should learn how to deal with poopy people (and not let their abnoxia affect my mood), but shouldn't one surround himself with high-class people to become high-class? Ug, I'm confused.
To make matters even more complicated, Mikaela is excited to sing a duet with me. She's been thinking of doing one for awhile, but now I simply want to leave. How do I bail out of this situation without hurting her feelings? Ugg...
I feel trapped.
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You do what feels right to you. If you are not using your time productively, not learning anything of value, plus having to sit through all the vulgar language and behaviors, it sounds like it would be the right choice to not return to that class or school.
ReplyDeleteCeana has been through a similar situation. It is part of the reason that she was going to choose to not return to band, even if they had let her return to school for music. The teacher was the instigator of the garbage going on so it just escalated. She was really disappointed with the garbage going on and that the school admins did nothing to stop it. When I was on the band trip with her, I had to chat with students about behavior and language.
Sit down with your parents, let them know your concerns, pray about things. Heavenly Father wants you to stand for right and truth, but He doesnt expect you to put yourself in the middle of the garbage to do it. You do have a choice in this, and sometimes choosing the better part is just walking away.
If the gal you are talking about is truly your friend, she will understand. If she doesnt, maybe she is not a friend you really need.
I was just going to say that. I agree completely, and you can stand for truth and righteousness by not putting yourself in that environment. I'm sorry that it is that way. It's almost a "culture" shock, and I know exactly how you feel. Choir is a good way to improve your talents, but if there are way more not-so-good things than uplifting things (which is what it sounds like), then it is prob not the way to go. You said that church choir is during the time that you set up for the sacrament, but weren't you also going to see if you could set up a stake youth choir or something? You have an amazing talent for music and singing esp, and you do use it. You can still choose uplifting songs to learn, even if it is on your own. Keep up the good work, and let your light shine! :)
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